I rewrote this post about 5 times - I decided not to go into my history because I don't like writing about it or reading about it. Much better to leave the whole lot in the box where it has been for years. All I can say is this - I will do my damndest to try and teach my girls to be educated, independent individuals, who are able to make intellegent decisions based on the understanding of their own abilities and needs. I will support their endevours and be there for them when they fail. The best I can do is to try and teach them that they do not need to learn from their own mistakes, that it is perfectly ok to learn from mistakes made by others, including me. Maybe I don't care too much about my own life and care so much about theirs because I wasted mine but theirs are just beginning. I see the world from a different perspective than most other people in that I have very poor health, terrible headaches and many other side-effects of my missspent youth. This lot has led me to live my life very much from day to day. I see every day as my last day and maybe this is why I spend so much time with the wife and kids.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining - it is what it is. People might say that I am being melodramatic, or quoting RA RA books, but is not so, it is a rare and great day that I don't wake up with a terrible headache or go to bed without a terrible headache.
If I could do it all over again I sure as hell wouldn't have gone down the road that I did.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining - it is what it is. People might say that I am being melodramatic, or quoting RA RA books, but is not so, it is a rare and great day that I don't wake up with a terrible headache or go to bed without a terrible headache.
If I could do it all over again I sure as hell wouldn't have gone down the road that I did.
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